A constant overwhelming feeling in my chest that I try to downplay. I put on a mask because how do I talk about the same things daily without dampening the moment, how do I talk about the same fears daily without sounding like a broken record, hell I sound like a broken in my own mind now imagine verbalizing the same things over and over again….. it’s no wonder they think something is always up with me
There is no avenue to let it out so I put on a brave mask to cover up my fears, insecurities and anxieties. I put it on now, I’ll put it on tomorrow and for the rest of the week, it will continuously stay on because I dare not speak on the same issues again so…
I stay quiet, in hopes that somebody will read between the lines and hear my silent screams.
I stay quiet in hopes that somebody notices my battle in the midst of my stillness but nobody does.
I stay quiet in hopes that a savior will appear out of nowhere and take my burdens away from me but again, there’s nobody coming to save me….
So I stay quiet and keep my mask on…..I may take it off for a few hours at night but even I am scared of the version without the mask
Therefore it stays on. At all times…..
One day at a time 