Is there anything you feel too old to do anymore?
I feel too old to repeat myself to another grown adult. Unfortunately I’m that type of person to give people, especially romantic partners, chance after chance because you’re holding on to that little bit of hope.
However I feel so drained after repeating myself. You definitely heard me the first time. You heard me the second time. Although I know that my selfworth isn’t tied to my friends or my partner, I sometimes wonder if I’m just not good enough. It’s something I’ve battled with for a long time now because I ask myself why can’t they hear me, why can’t they see me. What can I do differently for them to consider my feelings but in reality a lot of times it is the opposite actually. They aren’t good enough for me. They aren’t special, it’s my love for them that makes them appear more special in my eyes.
In reality people battle demons that has nothing to do with you. People need their ego stroked, men especially. But you know what I am not God and my mercies don’t endured forever.
One day at a time 