Happy new year my lovelies. We made it into the new year, I hope everyone crossed over healthy and happy despite the current pandemic. As usual I guess we all make new years resolutions, some write down their goals, some make long term goals and some short term. Whatever the case may be, I pray that all your heart desires come to pass, I pray that the will of God be manifested in all your lives.
In my case, I do not know what it was, but I have been anxious this past week. It got so bad that the people around me started noticing. I am normally good at suppressing these things when I feel them and just get home and deal with it but this Past week.. nah the devil was at work. I felt anxious about everything, literally anything you can think of, I was anxious about it, was it finances, getting a bigger apartment, getting back to work, grades in school….. these are just some of the things that were constantly on my mind. I was weak. I let my anxiousness get the better part of me last week.
Each time I think of the future I always think of it with the mindset of my current situation, something I should not do because my situation will not be like this forever. I spoke to a few friends about it and the response I got was “what if it all goes right!”, another thing someone told me was that if I do not believe in myself, I would fall for anything. The bare minimum will look attractive. Now that last one hit home.
So here is how I choose to approach the new year:
- I will be more prayerful. This is to prepare me for my battles. There is nothing more important than seeking the kingdom of God first (Matthew 6:33)
- I will be kind and patient with myself. Rom was not built in one day right! Everything that belongs to me is on its way to find me. What belongs to me can not be taken away from me.
- I will have a more positive mindset to life. Why must things go wrong. Why can they not go right.
- I will believe in myself. I will be confident in myself and what I have to offer. I was once in a position, where someone used my lack of funds against me and that messed me up for a while. It made me believe that if I do not have money, I have nothing else to offer.
- I will be proactive
- I will not be ashamed of my story.
- I will take breaks when needed, take care of myself and my mental because it is priority.
So, my lovelies these are just a few things that have been on my mind as the year 2020 came to an end. 2020 was a shitty year? I beg to differ. 2020 was a good year because it showed me what was for me and what was not. it showed me that my friends are great, I reconnected with all of them. It highlighted my mental capacity and my strength as a person and as a mother. It is all just starting, and I am ready for what 2021 has in store for me. The few points that I have mentioned do not only apply to me, make sure you take care of yourself and your mental health, believe in yourself because everything starts from within and be proactive because you also gotta put in the work. Everything that is for you is making its way to you. Now chin up and read Isaiah 41:10.
One day at a time 